don't let me down

wah...
what a mix-bla-bla-bla mood!!!!!!!!!!!
whats!
i am happy~
but i am going to cry!!!!!!!!!!
what's this mood!
huh?!!!!!!!!!!
happy>?sad>?
i don't even know..~i hope i know better..
in this situation..
i don't make me hope much..
because i am scared of losing the kind of waiting mood!!!!!!!
please..
don't let me down..
or..
i won't ever ever forgive you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one day
i want to be your friends..
i want our time to be back..
back to a better future..
better friendship...
i want it..
can you understand ??~
huh?~
but one day
i saw you
and you are the one like i had never know before..
who are you???~
are we still FRIENDS?

shut up!

i am so .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the words...told her her...!
wat the!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am just so angry about it..!!!!!!!!!!
that's what you like?
comparing around?
comparing about this and that?
i don't like about it okay>?
just shut up before..
i said 'shut up' in front of you
!
okay!
just shut up!just shut up shut up shut up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am not a good-tempered person okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shut up..
don't make me rude!

THE FIRST SCHOOLDAY

wow..
the first day of school in 2011...
my first day in form 5 life...
and my last chance of tasting the first day of high school's life..
i don't know what word is suitable to describe my first day..
i just know that sometimes..
we need to be proactive to get what we really want..
and not just sitting there...
and waiting for the chance to come knocking the door...
because this is ridiculous..
i am always the one waiting..
waiting for people to help me..
waiting for people to give me opportunity..
i know i am being ridiculous too..
because just now i feel sad for a little moment..
because from assistant monitor..
i get nothing in class this year..
and a little bit of frustration maybe..
anyway..
i don't even know the reason i am thinking like this..
since i reject myself what comes to me..
bm pj..
whatever..
i should know that when we want something,
we should always get it ourselves..
and not dreaming and hoping people to fulfill your wish..
just like the lessons go,
they are never real Santa Claus during Christmas time...
they are just your parents,
or someone that cares about you..
someone that love you..
but..
as life goes..
the one that loved and protect you can't always be beside you..
being your angel
isn't means all the time..
sometimes
we just need to be more independent..
and work hard for what we really want..
not wasting time waiting for the opportunity..or wasting time being down about the way yourself lose the chance..
chance comes and go..
and always..
i am the one that let it go..
but this only teach me to grab the opportunity more tightly next time...
so that i won't lose it
again and again....
i know i shouldn't feel negative in the first day..
but still
i lighten up myself..
by trying to talk...
sometimes..
i just can't find the right words..
anyway..
i enjoy the time to laugh loudly and uncontrollably...

2011

2011 IS A NEW YEAR
so
don't let the long gone mood dampen your mood!
lighten up your mood..!
tomorrow
the sun is new!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!
welcome to the year 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this will definitely be a really good year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wish
everyone will be really happy in this year!!!!!!!!!
hope everyone enjoy 2011...!
and also hope 4 for spm examination!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
welcome 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010

wow..
2 more minutes..
and bye bye to all my moody moody
i know how much i am jealous when i see what i hate..
and that's just immature!
very immature!!!!!!!!
friends...
they can be good..
but you must start the initiative..
to be good to them first..
人很矛盾....
有的时候不会珍惜..
失去了才后悔...

2010

i don't know whether it's good or bad to have different friends...
but it do hurt sometimes..
how they can so easily forget about what we said one month ago..
sometimes i even doubt that he still know who am i..
and anyway..
nvm....keep the precious friendship that we once have..
and keep it in heart..
save it as memories...
to L
maybe someday later..you will find how beautiful and amazing..
although the friendship didn't last long..
it still...
precious..
i won't forget the way you help me..
getting through the obstacles...
that's nothing in your eyes..
since you are used to it...
the way you are not shy...
the way you talk with me...
the way you care about me..


to L..
i don't know what you really means to me...
friends??
but it hardly counts..
i don't know..
you talked to me face to face for just few minutes maybe..
and i appreciate you as my friends..
i don't think we can keep in contact often...
starting next year..
when school's reopen,everyone will get busy..
i will keep this friendship in my heart,always...
you don't have to know it,
you feel it...~

to X
you know what..
i seldom mix around so easily..
it's not like one day or two days and i get a best frends or what..
i need years..
but the way we know each other..
cold at the first day..
the second day..
we talk really politely..
polite conversation..
and the third day,i can't believe that we really hug each other..
laugh uncontrollably..
the things i enjoy most..
you give me warm..
and i like it..
'my wife'
i will always remember you

to L
you seem so quiet..
so distant..
make me don't even have the courage to talk with you..
and you know what..
we talk like old friends after 2 days..
and i know you truly treat me as your friends..
new friends..
welcome to my life..
and i will never forget what we have done together..~
^
to w..
we know for just 2 days..or one day..maybe
and you know what..
i seem like knowing you long time ago..
friends...

to L
you are so active..
and i am so shy..
anyway..
i appreciate your friendliness..
thx ..~

i don't know when is the time we meet again...
can we recognize each other..
or just walk by as strangers?
anyway..
i love you all...
and i appreciate the friendships we had shared together..
maybe the time we spend is even few hours or few days..
still
it doesn't really matter..
when all we need is
already in the heart...
distant makes us stranger?
that depends...~
friendship forever