cheer!!!!!

why m i always focusing on what i didn't have..
i have had enough already..
i know i should appreciate it...
thanks friends...
i do appreciate it^^~
don't be stupid anymore..
i am begging myself..
please love yourself~~~~~~`
just by not hurting yourself...~~~~~~~~
i am not going to hurt myself again!!!!!!
i promise...~
this time..
i really promise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to be happy....~~~~~~
even if i am all on myself...~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i want to be independent...~~~~~~~~~
i don't ever want the word 'fear' to appear everyday..
'fear' if alone..is stupid..
because i am not scared of it..!!!!!!!!!!
i am just worried about what people think..
and i am being really stupid about this...~
i know i shouldn't....
there's lot more things to do ..
not thinking about nonsense all the time..!!!!!!!
difference doesn't means it is my fault..~
it can be positive too..~~~~~